Mom

I feel more and more alive,
When I close my eyes.
I slip into the unconsciousness,
And I dream of a better life.

A life without pain,
And a life without sorrow.
If only I could wake up,
And be like that tomorrow.

I tell myself that it's not my fault,
That I didn't do this.
But if I didn't do it,
Then why am I still going through it?

It hits like a ton,
I fall to the floor.
I'm the cause of my destruction,
I'm the one who didn't speak up.

I'm the one too stupid to let them know,
If I had told someone then,
Would she have still let me go?

But why,
Why make me leave,
I thought I needed you,
I thought you needed me.

I can't get over it happening,
Everytime I close my eyes I see it,
You let me slip away,
You allowed me to get defeated.

Is it all my fault,
We're we never meant to be?
Was I not good enough for you,
Or were you not good enough for me?