Ultimately Betrayed

THE ULTIMATE BETRAYL

She stole two and a half decades from me; she stole my trust, she stole my life!
She was the mother of all my children, and my wife.

25 years...5 children later and the DNA reveals...not one of our children are biologically mine;
I can’t believe I believed all the lies;
I only married her in the 1st place...because she told me she was with child;
But when I found out and came to the realization this meant Junior wasn’t actually mine...I almost died!

Truth be told, there was someone else...this woman whom I loved with all my heart and soul...indeed she was the one that got away;
I can not lie...I am in love with her til this very day...

But I never cheated on my wife;
I always tried my very best to do what was right.

To think this other woman never got married or had any children of her own...it’s like her heart was telling her to wait for me;
Or perhaps too much time has gone pass and it doesn’t matter...perhaps she no longer even loves me.

I’m so pissed;
I punched the wall and shattered my knuckles and wrist.

I’m so hurt;
I couldn’t even think straight much less walk...

My spirit was so grieved;
I couldn’t even breathe.

I was so unbelievably sad;
Its like I forgot to be mad.

Alimony and Child Support?
To a bitch that lied and stole my life?
A woman that was suppose to be my support system, my better half? My wife?

I did the right thing by marrying her and starting a family...or so I thought at the time;
But now I’m leaving my house, my children who AREN'T my children and my entire life behind.

They carry my last name;
Although our DNA may not be the same;
But my feelings for them can never change.

It’s their mother I can’t stand;
She’s the one I hate;
She’s the lying bitch...

She’s the one that broke the marriage vows we made to one another;
She’s the one I caught butt-naked in bed with her very own brother.

It’s clear to me now that her entire family is severely sick and need therapy;
My entire life, my home was built from a lie...my wife lied to me!

I just need some time;
I just need some space;
But how can I afford another place?

Can’t afford to take care of the bills across two households;
But why do I even still feel responsible for this hoe?

Maybe because she sacrificed her career just to see me excel in mine;
Now I’m about to divorce her and leave her as a single mom!

And our last born (the twins) their birthday is in several weeks;
I’m sick to my stomach, I’m torn,
I’m weak.

God help me, help heal my family, help this woman to raise this children without me in this home;
Help the children themselves (that they don’t feel abandoned and alone).

Their biological father is their maternal uncle;
The man they thought was there dad...is not their father;
But their mother may never be honest and tell them the truth or even bother:

It’s all a big mess;
If you only knew my level of stress;
This has been an unbearable test.

Pls keep my family in prayer and pray especially for me and my soon to be ex wife;
She refuses to sign the divorce papers and is trying to further paralyze my life.

She’s filing for both alimony and child support;
What a mother fucking joke!

Lawyer is saying the children were born during the course of our marriage;
And I did sign my name on all of their birth certificates...

So that makes me legally responsible for them until they are of age;
But I’m just trying to move forward with my life...without pain and shame;
My former life has become a source of pain and rage;
Don’t they understand that I was lied to and betrayed?

What do they really and truly expect me to do?
Divorce and end up bankrupt or be forced to stay?

Man I’ll tell you;
Life just isn’t fair..it’s not fair at all.
Y’all pls keep me In your thoughts and prayers;
I am not ok at all.

I contemplated suicide but I called a help line and they were able to literally talk me off the edge;
I’m still contemplating wrapping my hand around my wife's neck and not letting go until she stops breathing or turns red.

I honestly have not been myself past few months that we’ve been fighting this out in court;
I had a nervous breakdown and got fired from my job;
I’m now living in a homeless shelter;
Some of these laws have to be changed to not only be in the best interests of the children & mothers...but also the heart broken, financially staggered & ultimately betrayed fathers...