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Thinking of..........

You know how certain songs strike up a memory of a time,place or a person from your life ?

I'm sorry i didn't get my shit together as long as we have known each other. Can you find it in your heart to forgive me for the fool I've been?

I haven't had much happiness in my entire life.  But i was very happy 😁to have met you and to be your friend.

My unhappiness has been brought about by all the deaths of my family and friends. I've tried many times to allow happiness to stay within me.  It's just not possible. I have too much hurt in my soul. I'm not longed to have true happiness in this life. I'm more optimistic that in the next life i will be eternally happy.

Meanwhile I've created a facade when I'm around others. They get the impression i am happy.  But I'm not.

It's just something that's embedded into my mind. No matter how hard i try to change it.  I can't. 😞

Something won't let me.

There isn't anyone i can be myself around.  I'm alone.

Mentally i am alone.



Written by jmerrick73
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