Hybridized Carnations

 Cold slab,  
where scalpels and
 syringes  pin
your world  back together  

Continuously feeding yourself
 fake  pasteurized  orgasms  
creates that frenzied  
look  in your beady eyes.  
 
Rain beats up then down
 on your skin
 sloughing  off tainted  
reality
Sucked into the drain
 pan,
 overfilled,  clogged

 floor drain backs up  
Hacking bits of pornography
Into the lavatory next door.  
 
She screams ,then laughs  
As she sees herself giving suck
Saved from an old
 reel to reel for the quality
 
 
Everything wasted away on
Slap and spank  
Your words meant nothing
They fell to one side
 like those

Fluff girls hanging their asses
off the edge
of the kitchen table
Numbing their bum with
 left over cocaine
 

 We all know it's not real  
none of it is  
Especially the part  
about you  
Loving  
me  
 
Not a chance  
mother  
fucker  
you only loved yourself  
the vision of how good  
you looked with me on  
your arm  

That smile we know you  
must have been harboring
 a finger up your ass for
 that grin  
Don't regret  
and don't make excuses  
There is a reason  
for  everything  
I don't want to know