No one has cut me deeper then me
Ive lied to me  
sold me promises I could not keep  
blamed me for rerun mistakes  
No longer ignorant in my decisions  
Just dumb  

The nerve I have  
Raging hormones at other people mistakes
Then realizing my flaw
By then its too late  
Burning bridges because I'm falling down  
Tried to ease the fire  
But my saliva made it worse  

I take the blame for me  
Deep down its eating at me  
Destroying the world around me  

My past experiences bud my head
will not accept a rose is still a rose
even when a storm hits it  
Still a flower  
Blossom love,  
I tell me  

Doubting the possibilities  
Because of me  
Uncontrolled anger
Building cases against me
from bottled up energy  

Don't you dare think positive
Or things could actually go right
I slumber
Eating the same meals
Taking the same shots  
I'm comfortable in me  
Until I'm not  

I have no in between  
mad or happy  
True definition of 0-100% real quick  
Logic cut throat emotional (IF ONLY I COULD INSERT THE EMOJI FACE) :{  
Who said I was wrong  
because I feel deeply  
React Deeply  

Copied excuses
Recycled lectures
I know better  
but me prefers convent retreats  
Take flight  
Never fight
Forever crashing hours later  
so I take flight again  

I am my own battle  
I fight me everyday  
Hardest battle I ever fought
Its like fighting two ppl  
My head says ,ready, take action  
Heart subdues every time  

Back again fighting me...  
I know its ME  
trying to help me  
Geesh, Kill me  

Written by LadyB (OlaRay_SunRays)
Published | Edited 25th Jan 2020
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