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Lost

I know what it is to die
And lie in one of the unmarked graves of life
No prize
No glory
No honor gained
To stand mute before the butcherís blow
Then smile and say
ďItís alright.Ē
As he lands the fatal strike

None come to see you
Lying bloody and broken in the Shambles
The stench of it lies outside the city wall
Far from the fairest of ladies
And far from any feeling at all
I worked 8 hours today
I am a good drone
I know every move by rote
Reflex is good
You donít have to think
I canít think
I work so I donít have to
I donít want to breath

Itís a good thing I donít drink
This would be a good day Ė or week
For a drink
To crawl back into the bottle
To relearn how to curl up and die
Retching and puking
And drinking myself sober
But stupidly
Comfortably numb
I canít move forward
There is no forward
There is no direction here
Just pull the trigger on a bottle
And kill the pain before it kills me
I'm so tired of alone

But I canít go that road
Because Iíd be out of control
And thereís a dark place beyond the numb
I canít revisit
Even to take away this pain

No
I take my pain steady on
Show what it is to be the better man
A man better than what I am
And take the high road
To contend with myself once more
And being alone...
I donít like the face I see of the man in the mirror
I donít like these feelings everyday
But theyíre the only company I have to rely on
Thereís nowhere else to turn to anymore
I'm just sending messages into the ether
Just like space
And pretending thereís intelligent life
That hears
And cares
And answers broken prayers
AverageJoe
Written by AverageJoe (Average Joe. AJ. Joe)
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Author's Note
Five Finger Death Punch - Far From Home @ https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=dMHhiMxGLU0

When you see a man led to prison say in your heart, "Mayhap he is escaping from a narrower prison." And when...
Five Finger Death Punch - Far From Home @ https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=dMHhiMxGLU0

When you see a man led to prison say in your heart, "Mayhap he is escaping from a narrower prison." And when you see a man drunken say in your heart, "Mayhap he sought escape from something still more unbeautiful." - Kahlil Gibran
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