SHAM - an august lyric on false

I felt alive the moment I closed
my eyes to fate !
 
I meticulously reflect on those  
Happy days ..
We created memories playing
Insouciantly in our cozy upholstery
Telling stories and making promises
To ever be happy no matter what fate
Life brings us ..
These words would make me ask with
 fear Commander do you wanna leave me ?
Never did he give a Yes or No to this  
question,but he would always sit closer to  
me at this moment in our warm sofa,
Take my two cold hands and rest on his
 two cheeks,looked straight into my eyes with love,
and after a while he would give me a satisfying  
hug,I felt fragile but strong in his embrace
The easy repeated beat of his heart and his  
warm arms reaching out to hold me strong to  
his body gave me real comfort..
Then he would break the silence with his regular  
aphorism I quote;
" A slodiers life is a ransom paid for his people's hostage
It is left for fate to decide at which dawn he will fall"
After many words and life teachings from him,
I sometimes doze off,while he continued to read  
 numerous poems and fictions to guide my weary  
soul ..
I can recall him reading out the words  
of - Christian D to be the last in  
in memory of him..the book quotes  
" Promise yourself  to be happy that
nothing can disturb your peace of mind..
Look at the sunny of everything and make
your optimism come through..
Forget the  mistakes of the past and press
on to the greater achievements of the future  
Give so much time to the improvement of  
yourself that you have no time to criticize others,
live in the faith that the whole world is on your side
 as long as you are true to the best that is in you" ..
 
Commander served his whole life in the dark blues  
Up to the rank of a Captained senior officer in the  
United States esteemed Navy,before he went down  
the polar..
The woeful news of his fall .......