I Want

I want to know what love is

I deserve love, but don't feel I will earn the love of someone I long for

I feel weak
I feel useless, unloved and depressed

My body aches to be held

I wish to look her in the eyes, see her soul, and know I have a home there

I want to feel welcomed, appreciated, and loved

I don't want to turn cold, but fear I must, to keep myself safe from the pain

I can't write love songs

I don't experience love in a recognisable way

I long to hold someone at night that knows my light and dark
Someone that makes me nervous and shy, but strong

I want to be known
I want to know

I want to trust
And be trusted

I want to be respected

I want someone to admire my courage

I want to be vulnerable but not be seen as weak

I want someone to be overwhelmed with love for me, like I am for....