not my soulmate

you were not my soulmate
you only excelled at mimicking one
perhaps, at first you felt like home
only to end up building a house of clay
no, ours was not a home at all
it was a prison of sorts
a place where you held me up
but couldn't touch me
you never were my soulmate
though at times I could deceive myself
into believing it
I cannot say you were an ill chosen parnter
for it was the baby growing in
my womb that sealed out fate

you could never be my soulmate
you didn't have it in you
I blame no one for this
except myself and cringe at knowing
 I ignored all of the
red flags that said, "stop here but I
warn you not to stay here"
I believed we were in love for a time
until you betrayed me
in the one way I never thought you would
with a woman I never thought you could
have wanted more than me