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Beneath My Skin
Nestled inside my calloused mind
Is a fragile heart that’s quite benign;
Beneath these layers of thickened skin,
My heart is breaking, deep within
I hide behind this tough complexion
As a subtle means of misdirection,
From the fear that I hold deep within,
That I will lose you once again
But this impenetrable wall that I have built,
To shelter me from all the guilt,
To keep my fragile heart at bay,
And help to stave the pain away
Comes crashing down before my eyes
To reveal the truth that underlies…
My fear of failing once again,
My fear of losing you again
Is a fragile heart that’s quite benign;
Beneath these layers of thickened skin,
My heart is breaking, deep within
I hide behind this tough complexion
As a subtle means of misdirection,
From the fear that I hold deep within,
That I will lose you once again
But this impenetrable wall that I have built,
To shelter me from all the guilt,
To keep my fragile heart at bay,
And help to stave the pain away
Comes crashing down before my eyes
To reveal the truth that underlies…
My fear of failing once again,
My fear of losing you again
Written by
NewBeginnings
Published 7th Jan 2020
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Re. Beneath My Skin
7th Jan 2020 8:04am
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7th Jan 2020 8:17am
I was definitely feeling vulnerable when I wrote this little piece...
Thank you, cosiest, for your kind comment... I appreciate you :)
Thank you, cosiest, for your kind comment... I appreciate you :)
Re: Re. Beneath My Skin
7th Jan 2020 8:21am
No problem. I could feel the emotion in the poem. That is what matters. Don't ever be afraid of your feelings.
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Re. Beneath My Skin
7th Jan 2020 8:15am
That's when we go
Stuffing our bags with memories & loving manuscripts, before scurrying away to a safe comfortable place, till anxieties go away
Stuffing our bags with memories & loving manuscripts, before scurrying away to a safe comfortable place, till anxieties go away
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Re: Re. Beneath My Skin
7th Jan 2020 8:21am
Doesn't sound like too bad of a plan, actually 😁
Thanks for stopping by again, Serenity. It's always good to see you here! ❤️
Thanks for stopping by again, Serenity. It's always good to see you here! ❤️
Re. Beneath My Skin
Anonymous
7th Jan 2020 8:31am
LOVE IT !!!
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Re: Re. Beneath My Skin
7th Jan 2020 8:39am
Thanks so much, Ragnar... and thank you again for encouraging me to post it :)
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Anonymous
7th Jan 2020 10:12am
All day bro!!!
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Re. Beneath My Skin
7th Jan 2020 8:37am
I could feel the raw emotion when reading this, very moving
Thankyou for sharing 🙂
Thankyou for sharing 🙂
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Re: Re. Beneath My Skin
7th Jan 2020 8:45am
I'm happy that this could stir a little something in you, Countygal; and I am honored that I was able to move you with my words. Thank you so much for your comment and thanks for stopping by my page to read and reply :)
Re. Beneath My Skin
7th Jan 2020 10:17am
Fear of loss is very heartbreaking 💔,
I completely understand this feeling and have felt this way myself.
I just try to trust that everything will work out in the end, even when it feels too hard to believe and seems incredibly out of reach. 😔
Smile, NB 🙂
❤
I completely understand this feeling and have felt this way myself.
I just try to trust that everything will work out in the end, even when it feels too hard to believe and seems incredibly out of reach. 😔
Smile, NB 🙂
❤
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Re: Re. Beneath My Skin
7th Jan 2020 12:22pm
Thank you for understanding, Scribbles :)
"I just try to trust that everything will work out in the end, even when it feels too hard to believe and seems incredibly out of reach."
That's probably the most solid advice I've gotten so far... We must try to trust faith and accept the things which we can't change. I will keep reaching :)
"I just try to trust that everything will work out in the end, even when it feels too hard to believe and seems incredibly out of reach."
That's probably the most solid advice I've gotten so far... We must try to trust faith and accept the things which we can't change. I will keep reaching :)
Re. Beneath My Skin
Anonymous
7th Jan 2020 10:26am
The raw expression of our human fragility is our exposure to others sentiments. Our nature is so vulnerable. Beautiful spill
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Re: Re. Beneath My Skin
7th Jan 2020 12:27pm
"The raw expression of our human fragility is our exposure to others sentiments."
SavageSin - I agree with your note in vulnerability. Well-spoken and full of truth! To have love, vulnerability is a necessity.
May we all be more vulnerable today, with less walls between us and the world! ❤️
SavageSin - I agree with your note in vulnerability. Well-spoken and full of truth! To have love, vulnerability is a necessity.
May we all be more vulnerable today, with less walls between us and the world! ❤️
Re. Beneath My Skin
7th Jan 2020 10:36am
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7th Jan 2020 4:43pm
Thanks so much, wh1skey! I am flattered that you decided to nominate my poem :)
I appreciate your continued support... So glad you enjoyed it!
I appreciate your continued support... So glad you enjoyed it!
Re. Beneath My Skin
7th Jan 2020 11:17am
I love the vulnerability that’s woven into this; it reinforces the necessity to grasp that which is within your reach and define how you want the bond to emerge.
I hope you do, and that way you’ll never lose what is meant to be, with another.
Peace be unto you... ❤️
I hope you do, and that way you’ll never lose what is meant to be, with another.
Peace be unto you... ❤️
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Re: Re. Beneath My Skin
7th Jan 2020 8:00pm
Thank you so much for that thoughtful comment, shadow! I wish only the best to you the same. Your readership and your kindness are much appreciated :)
Re. Beneath My Skin
7th Jan 2020 11:37am
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7th Jan 2020 8:02pm
I'm glad that you liked it, NuBorn. Poetry from the heart, it is. Thanks for taking the time to read and comment :)
Re. Beneath My Skin
7th Jan 2020 12:17pm
Thick skin always seems to cover something broken... lovely. Thank you for sharing!!!
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7th Jan 2020 8:06pm
I'm pleased that you enjoyed it, Vickie. Thanks so much for stopping by! :)
Re. Beneath My Skin
7th Jan 2020 12:34pm
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7th Jan 2020 8:08pm
Thank you for your continued readership and support, stoney! You're awesome... so glad that you enjoyed it :)
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8th Jan 2020 12:42pm
Re. Beneath My Skin
8th Jan 2020 00:57am
oh, do i know this shell... this sandpaper skin hiding glass bones & a fabergé heart.
a fine write
🥂
a fine write
🥂
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Re: Re. Beneath My Skin
8th Jan 2020 5:52am
Thank you, shadoe. It's an easy protective mechanism to keep from getting hurt. Thank you so much for stopping by again. It's much appreciated ❤️
Re. Beneath My Skin
8th Jan 2020 2:29am
Wow! This was deep.
This really hit home for me,pretty sure you’ll never truly respect suffering until you give love a gambling chance.
Scary stuff.
Loved it.
;;;Justin
This really hit home for me,pretty sure you’ll never truly respect suffering until you give love a gambling chance.
Scary stuff.
Loved it.
;;;Justin
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8th Jan 2020 7:56pm
Thank you for stopping by to relate, jigg. I'm so glad that you were able to relate, and that you enjoyed this poem... I appreciate your readership :)
Re. Beneath My Skin
Well NewB..
R you reading me.... Lol just kidding.
Raw as no raw can tell it like it is
I know that feeling....
Sometimes its already lost and we linger in it instead of facing it and move.... Life ...love...i meant oxcytocin ? (Hope i wrote it right 😊) ....... And all the others you mentioned in your other piece in here, just while feeling emotional sometimes grelin and his partner in crime are on vacation..... 🤔😊.
I love it.
R you reading me.... Lol just kidding.
Raw as no raw can tell it like it is
I know that feeling....
Sometimes its already lost and we linger in it instead of facing it and move.... Life ...love...i meant oxcytocin ? (Hope i wrote it right 😊) ....... And all the others you mentioned in your other piece in here, just while feeling emotional sometimes grelin and his partner in crime are on vacation..... 🤔😊.
I love it.
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Re: Re. Beneath My Skin
9th Jan 2020 7:56pm
Lol, yes, I am :P
Thanks for stopping by to relate, poetic... And I'm so glad that you liked it! Your comment made me laugh :)
Thanks for stopping by to relate, poetic... And I'm so glad that you liked it! Your comment made me laugh :)
Re. Beneath My Skin
8th Jan 2020 7:21am
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9th Jan 2020 7:59pm
That is very true. Thanks so much, Devils... Your readership is much appreciated :)
I'm honored by the RL!
I'm honored by the RL!
Re. Beneath My Skin
8th Jan 2020 11:47pm
You truly captured a feeling I can relate to. And the rhythm was executed perfectly. Well done.
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Re: Re. Beneath My Skin
9th Jan 2020 10:36pm
That is such a great compliment, Tenderloin, and I am very pleased that you enjoyed it :)
I don't know about perfectly executed, but I spent a good amount of time thinking this one out...
Thank you so much for your readership and your RL - it means a lot!
I don't know about perfectly executed, but I spent a good amount of time thinking this one out...
Thank you so much for your readership and your RL - it means a lot!
Re. Beneath My Skin
9th Jan 2020 00:08am
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I appreciate the flattery, Rachel :)
I'm really happy that you decided to stop by to read and comment!
I'm really happy that you decided to stop by to read and comment!
Re. Beneath My Skin
9th Jan 2020 10:02am
Re: Re. Beneath My Skin
9th Jan 2020 11:00pm
Thank you kindly, Wandering :)
Your continued support is deeply appreciated! I'm glad that you liked it!
Your continued support is deeply appreciated! I'm glad that you liked it!
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9th Jan 2020 11:03pm
Re: Re. Beneath My Skin
9th Jan 2020 11:21pm
I read and like but don't always comment ... Realized just yesterday I wasn't following you and rectified that ... Bless and love ... .
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Re: Re. Beneath My Skin
9th Jan 2020 11:25pm
Well, either way, it's good to hear from you. Thanks for your good wishes, Fenyx - best wishes to you as well :)
Re. Beneath My Skin
9th Jan 2020 10:59pm
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9th Jan 2020 11:26pm
Awww, thanks, stillalive! I'm so glad that my writing speaks to you... and am very appreciative of your readership. You are kind :)
Re. Beneath My Skin
14th Jan 2020 1:35am
I understand that fear, and love keeps that fear alive and well. Wish I can love without, the interruption of this fear. Some times it pushes the person away, that you fear losing the most, because your fears can unconsciously, cause you to sabotage your relationship. Because of the fear of it being destroyed any way. It's to good to be true. These fears restrains the blooming flower of love. Very touching, a fear I identify with well. Me and heartbreak. Became such familiar friends. Where would love be without it.
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Re. Beneath My Skin
14th Jan 2020 1:36am
I understand that fear, and love keeps that fear alive and well. Wish I can love without, the interruption of this fear. Some times it pushes the person away, that you fear losing the most, because your fears can unconsciously, cause you to sabotage your relationship. Because of the fear of it being destroyed any way. It's to good to be true. These fears restrains the blooming flower of love. Very touching, a fear I identify with well. Me and heartbreak. Became such familiar friends. Where would love be without it.
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Re. Beneath My Skin
14th Jan 2020 6:39am
There's truth there. I can't touch something I may lose again, my heart couldn't take it.
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Re. Beneath My Skin
Anonymous
23rd Apr 2020 1:24pm
So deep and beautiful written
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