Wet Pillows

I wake up
but many nights I dont sleep so really I just
Get up
Go to work and handle business sitting in meetings giving directions,
Talk to my friends giving them advice and life lessons
Clock out
Headed to the gym now to
Workout
Then its home I go , with the sudden desire to clean everything,
I need to go to the store now i think to get  something
Its Time for bed , I feel my energy dwindling
Now I feel like possibly something is missing
It's the pretend me , that pretended all day to be important and confident,
That work out and cleaned up all day to keep his mind at bay
But the second that's all over and I  lay
I start thinking about life in ways nobody knows
And soon my head will be laying on wet pillows