Unclean state of mind

I'm trapped in my,
Unclean state of mind.
I've been wasting all my time,
Drawing smiles on the mirror.
I cannot be defined,
Anything other than in ruins.
That's always been my life.

I've been trying to wake up.
But Where is my reason to?
Why am I always in gloom?
Why does it all seem so pointless?

I've been trying to realize,
everything that brought me to this.
Was it my own selflessness?
I have been confined,
In my unclean state of mind.