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Finding My Way

I used to know exactly what I wanted...
Who I was
What I believed
What is right
What is wrong
I was confident and strong-willed
My world was black and white
Day and night
Everything was so clear
...not today
 
Today,
There is so much grey
The night blends with day
Can't seem to find my way
Or keep this uncertainty at bay.
What to do?
What to say?
What to feel?
...what is real?
NewBeginnings
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Author's Note
Imagine fighting so hard to protect something that you love, only to find that all of your efforts were meaningless, and that you are going to lose it regardless. Imagine having a single revelation...
Imagine fighting so hard to protect something that you love, only to find that all of your efforts were meaningless, and that you are going to lose it regardless. Imagine having a single revelation in thought that is so contradictory to your belief system, that it uproots everything you believe in, and makes you question the entire basis of your reality. THIS is existentialism in raw form.

This is not my usual style, as it's relatively unstructured compared to my usual works. I was having a mini existential crisis the other night, and I quickly wrote down how I was feeling at the time. This little spill is essentially the product of conflicting thoughts... or cognitive dissonance - a war within the confines of my own mind.
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