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Lost

I look in the mirror every day
And every day I try to think of something to say
You ever wonder why am I here
You ever try to cry but never shed a tear
Are you ever angry and wish it would all go away
But every day when you wake up all your worst nightmares they always stay
Sometimes you try to fight it
You throw a punch but never land the hit
Stuck in the same old life
Going home but you never see your wife
 
The lake is sometimes frozen
And the path through has already been chosen
You work to get a promotion
But the truth is what you did didn't even set things in motion
Just having the notion
And realizing there was no point to your devotion
You hit a wall
But at the end of the day you don't stall
You fall
You stand up tall
But it is like you are at the end of the line at the end of the hall
You hope to hear that call
But at the end of it it gets drowned out by the mall
 
I'm lost
Sometimes I feel like my life is less of a gain and more of a cost
I fight invisibility  
The truth is when I fight I lose all sensibility  
I'm in a war I can't win
I'm fighting my sin
I'm wearing myself thin
I'm losing myself all from within
 
 
 
Author's Note
I had to write these. Life has been tough. Dog is really sick. I'm having mental, physical, and emotional issues. Honestly I'm just lost in my own head. I'm different. I never truly learned the most important thing. The ability to love yourself. But I'm going to keep fighting and maybe I'll make it. The world is crazy out there and I'm still trying to find my place in it. I wish you all love and happiness not only from family but also from inside because once you lose that it becomes hard to get back. There is no greater threat to us then ourselves. Thanks for listening and I hoped I moved you. I understand they were not happy thoughts but life isn't always happy. Sometimes all you can do is fight.
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