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25 Things I Miss About Us

1. Spooning at bedtime
2. Cooking meals together
3. Dinner parties with friends and family
4. Our bedtime ritual
5. Folding laundry together
6. Discovering new music together
7. Rubbing your feet while watching a show
8. Taking care of scary bugs for you
9. Spending the day together with no specific plans
10. Kissing
11. Shopping at thrift shops
12. Texts during work
13. Showering together
14. Cleaning up so you don't have to when you get home
15. Riding as a passenger
16. Long slow sensual lovemaking
17. Happy hour
18. Going out to dinner
19. Live music together
20. Our vision boards
21. Evenings on the deck (when the bugs don't get us)
22. Coming home from work knowing you are there
23. Corny jokes
24. Pedicures
25. Seeing you when I wake up

25 Things I Don't Miss About Us

1. Getting woke up because I snore
2. Being awake for hours before you in the morning
3. Falling asleep at night knowing you will be awake for hours
4. Being horny while you're still asleep
5. Not being horny when you are finally awake
6. Not having the energy when you are horny
7. Being told that I should be over my grief
8. Being told that I am inadequate as a stepfather
9. Being told that working full-time plus isn’t enough, then being criticized for not putting enough energy into”us”
10. Hearing your rants and knowing you did not hear what I said
11. Being interrupted before I complete a thought
12. Being labeled
13. Feeling lonely when you are next to me
14. Being stereotyped
15. Cleaning up after your dog
16. Endless lectures about our relationship
17. Knowing that I cannot touch you in certain ways because of a childhood abuser
18. Knowing that I can never live up to your fantasy of who I am
19. Apologizing but not being forgiven
20. Feeling like a failure
21. Feeling judged
22. Feeling inadequate
23. Feeling like everything I do is wrong
24. Feeling like there is something you want but I have to guess (usually wrong)
25. Knowing that I am a cause of your pain

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