Pages torn from a hustler's journal: 4

There’s no road to perdition and the greatest conversation you can have is with yourself. Your mental health is dependent on building that palace. The practice of directly dividing and identifying the world through critical thinking constantly grows and expands the nature of objects, actions and ideas. The regular practice of conversation with emotionally mature seekers of similar disposition deepens the chambers of knowledge. Where ideas collide, where conflict is exercised and new roads are born bonds deepen. The ability to candidly disagree, to discuss differences, contrast perspectives, identify salient points and sub-points, tracking consistently is an incredibly useful tool. Being able to disagree and discuss the points of disagreement in a calm and centered way is directly related to shadow work, introspection. Having a regular meditation practice, as well as having hard challenges in life. Heavy lifting and combat sports is so essential to activating the animus and practicing differing applications of liminal balance. Stasis is death. All life, all things in the universe is energy. All energy is movement. All movement is waves. All waves are arcs. There are no straight lines. The bends and bows are responses to the environment, the very environment created by those waves. Heavy lifting and combat sports is a direct representation and creation of the counterforce, the environment created by waves. Environment is a reaction. Mass is a counterforce. We do to create. We create to do. We do because we are. We are because we created ourselves, as the waves unto form. Being able to navigate through conflict, change and stress and take that stress as positive force, a message about what direction to move is the highest state. We radiate when we are activated. We are activated when we are pushed just past our limits When we push ourselves past our limits the ego evaporates. The conversation with yourself starts there


Writing is sandbagging. Reaching higher states where you can biohack and illuminate involves practice and getting active is getting after it. Rapture fits where it has its space. That grace must be created. What you relate to is where your mind stays. So overflowing with play is one element. Every dimension must be integrated with the rest so the whole functions in constant motion. Fluid social ocean. The drop is the ocean. The organism is the environment. All writing and thinking is mixing. Get the mix right and the elixir is pure magic. Gummi Bear Juice. Get the mix wrong and it feels wrong, sounds off, like bad music or awkward sex. Like forced conversation. Internal conversation shouldn’t be forced, nor should it be banal and weak. The practice of clearing the pipes, stacking the shelves, aligning the principles, practicing the reps, smoothening out the timing, tightening all the supports is a daily maintenance ritual. This ritual yields amazing results over time though, as incremental growth leaks into unexpected advantages. The further your mind can reach, the more plays you can stack.


Who your friends’ friends are is an important component of social ecology that is often overlooked. You are so affected by your friends when you spend a lot of time with them and patterns are picked up, emotional qualia stays with you, and heuristics get confirmed. It’s dangerous to stay within your cultural bubble and just listen to the reverb from your echo chamber because that reverb eventually gets digested like its gospel. Your friends though, each have their own gospel as well. Each has their own echo chamber, with their 5 finger fist, who they kick it with, who lingers in their mist. Each has their center, which is rooted in tradition and a lifetime of habits. Social conditions fix the corners of the hexagon, and the center color is a swirl of influences. That hexagon seen as a whole is a unique signature and a salient brand. One way to assess a person is to sum up their 5 closest friends, which shows what they aspire to, what they came from, where they’re at, what they’ll tolerate, what they consider important. If you play that forward 1 to 5 years, you can see a bigger picture of a person, and then decide if that dish should be a part of the smorgasbord of your life. Those extended influencers, those friends of friends might never meet you but those ingredients are part of your social wellspring.


Displaying skill in difficult or complicated social situations is a sign of genetic well-being, mental prowess, alacrity. It’s a psychodrama of more primal forces at work, namely domination, problem-solving, adaptation, and recovery. Bringing back the new knowledge the new tool or elixir that will help elevate the tribe is the most crucial component of the hero’s journey. The displays of battle and journeys of great challenge that are underlined in comedy and verbal jousting and combat sports of all kind is a remnant of that very necessary drive. We only became civilized from being savage, and being skilled enough at being savage to civilize our inner nature and our external world. That skill cannot be overlooked but constantly held to a vigilant fire. A good man is a very dangerous man who has it under voluntary control. The danger is not culpability but capability, which comes from awareness and self acceptance. The clarity and bliss that comes after challenges are defeated or losses are taken without ego is the peaceful state of all juices spent, of primal nature met, of the most base need of the SuperOrganism addressed. The genetic expression must constantly be pressure tested because the sequence self-replicates. Auto correction can only come with conflict. Otherwise responsiveness is useless.