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My Mind Runs Too Fast
Sometimes I confuse myself
And drive people away
Because I don't know how to explain
I like to think I am good with words
But when it comes to communication
I suck at it
It's hard to tell you how I feel when my mind is thinking faster than I can speak
I'm afraid you'll see just how messed up I am
I'm afraid I'll scare you away
I'm afraid I'll say something I regret
I know how depressed I am
I know my anxiety is bad
I know my mood changes fast
I am truly trying to figure myself out
But its hard
Especially when all of this makes me hate myself
I can't expect you to love me when I can't even love myself
And drive people away
Because I don't know how to explain
I like to think I am good with words
But when it comes to communication
I suck at it
It's hard to tell you how I feel when my mind is thinking faster than I can speak
I'm afraid you'll see just how messed up I am
I'm afraid I'll scare you away
I'm afraid I'll say something I regret
I know how depressed I am
I know my anxiety is bad
I know my mood changes fast
I am truly trying to figure myself out
But its hard
Especially when all of this makes me hate myself
I can't expect you to love me when I can't even love myself
Published 18th Dec 2019
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18th Dec 2019 9:40pm
I can relate so damn much, this is a struggle I've always had
"I like to think I am good with words
But when it comes to communication
I suck at it
It's hard to tell you how I feel when my mind is thinking faster than I can speak"
Same it's quite irritating, I knew before that I sucked at speaking in certain situations but once I started writing I thought I was wrong all along and that I was good with words but in real life conversations I would fail miserably
and get stuck way to deep in my mind to find a way out, and the ending is expressed so accurately
"I know how depressed I am
I know my anxiety is bad
I know my mood changes fast
I am truly trying to figure myself out
But its hard
Especially when all of this makes me hate myself
I can't expect you to love me when I can't even love myself"
Man this hits deep you nailed it completely
"I like to think I am good with words
But when it comes to communication
I suck at it
It's hard to tell you how I feel when my mind is thinking faster than I can speak"
Same it's quite irritating, I knew before that I sucked at speaking in certain situations but once I started writing I thought I was wrong all along and that I was good with words but in real life conversations I would fail miserably
and get stuck way to deep in my mind to find a way out, and the ending is expressed so accurately
"I know how depressed I am
I know my anxiety is bad
I know my mood changes fast
I am truly trying to figure myself out
But its hard
Especially when all of this makes me hate myself
I can't expect you to love me when I can't even love myself"
Man this hits deep you nailed it completely
18th Dec 2019 10:15pm
Thank you! It's nice knowing someone else understands this. Its comforting knowing I'm not alone in this struggle. Thanks for the meaningful comment! :)
18th Dec 2019 11:20pm
19th Dec 2019 6:20pm
This is me in a way...
People say I'm secretive but in reality I just fail to find words that best explain my emotions...
People say I'm secretive but in reality I just fail to find words that best explain my emotions...
27th Jan 2020 2:55am
This is me. I have anxiety . I have OCD. I have just been diagnosed with Epilepsy and this is some of the symptoms that is related to this disease. It also effects my thoughts and causes me to stutter when my anxiety is in full swing. It caused me to hate myself until I was diagnosed and read more about what was going on with me. Knowing what's going on with me and that I am not alone , I am learning to accept me . I have my support groups to help and now I your have your poetry to read. Thank you
