Dear Dad #4

I don't understand why you left.  
Do you even care about how I felt?  
Why are you not here with me?  
Is that where you want to be?  
 
Why don't you care enough to come back?  
Can't you just make some kind of pact?  
You weren't there when I needed you.  
Now you're not there for me this time too.  
 
Why do you have to be so selfish?  
I wish I could stop from feeling this.  
I'm so angry that you had to go.  
I'm so angry that you didn't say no.  
 
Couldn't you have stopped it?  
Couldn't you have thrown a fit?  
Was I not enough for you to stay?  
Wasn't there something for you to say?  
 
How could you go without a single goodbye?  
It's impossible? Why couldn't you at least try?  
I'm so angry that I'm not even mad, I'm just broken.  
I'm lost without one little word you could have spoken.  
 
I feel like a little girl crying over a missed birthday again.  
A little girl that missed that time you just couldn't spend.  
Why do I miss someone that wasn't there?  
All that time and you couldn't even share.  
 
You do realize that you have two daughters, right?  
Why is it that only one has to constantly fight?  
Why do I have to beg for the love one gets for free?  
What is it that's so very fucking horrible about me?  
 
So many questions that you can never answer.  
Another moment where the Dad just left her.  
I should be used to it, right?  
Yet I still continue to fight.