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Financial frustration,
the constant aggravation
I've grown so accustomed to
due to the fears and worries
of "never having enough just in case
cause you never know
 when you'll need it"
This way of thinking only provides you with panic and paranoia
when you begin to overanalyze
and hypothesize
all sorts of hellish scenarios,
the what ifs..
it's such a waste of mind
and precious time to do this..
to be this way...
But I can see
it's only me
ruining my days,
looping thoughts
seem to stay,
I never really
search for a solution anyway.
Ironically none of these scenarios
 ever come to exist
and the reality is
 we're more blessed than we think,
sure things may "stay the same"
 or "never change"
but the fact is
life's not getting worse
and it sure as hell could be alot worse
when I think of those who truly know
the life of being in pain or
 living in poverty,
those who've experienced real suffering
and faced the hardest of hardships,
that way of thinking helps me get a grip,
 helps me not slip quicker into
 self pity and pessimistic points of view.

The universe gets us through,
shows us we are not alone but
we're the only ones
who can change ourselves,
we must make a way
we must want things to be
 better or different,
and we must do everything
we possibly can
if you want to
get out of your current situation,
if you hate your life and
 stress all the time,
if you know you should improve yourself
and know there's much work to do,
you have to take the steps
you have to be consciously aware
of the things you do and
 the things you think
and the way you live,
you must give all you have
to break free from these cycles you feel so trapped in..
"We're all a lil broken"
but you can fix yourself
and your "shitty situation" if you
 truly try and believe you can,
just don't make it worse,
don't waste what you do have
 right here right now
which realistically
 is everything you need.