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Who Have I Become?
has pain deep within my soul
changed passion that used to be
into poison in my mind
how is it my heart bleeds
for only a certain few
and not for all around me
perhaps I have lost ability
to feel deep ness in others
or is it I gave up feeling
never thought I would ever be
a person to think only of themselves
there are times I’ve been selfish
I’m ashamed to have become this soul
who wants to be more involved
in peoples lives who I dearly luv
it seems once again.....
needing others more than they do me
has become my weakness in luving others
so tell me please......
have I lost the passionate me
or has the demon me arose
Copyright © 2019 Flowergirl All Rights Reserved
changed passion that used to be
into poison in my mind
how is it my heart bleeds
for only a certain few
and not for all around me
perhaps I have lost ability
to feel deep ness in others
or is it I gave up feeling
never thought I would ever be
a person to think only of themselves
there are times I’ve been selfish
I’m ashamed to have become this soul
who wants to be more involved
in peoples lives who I dearly luv
it seems once again.....
needing others more than they do me
has become my weakness in luving others
so tell me please......
have I lost the passionate me
or has the demon me arose
Copyright © 2019 Flowergirl All Rights Reserved
Published 1st Dec 2019
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1st Dec 2019 11:34pm
Firstly, we are ALL angels and demons; light and darkness; deep and shallow. It simply depends on the experience we're in the midst of- and what it is there to teach us. Some beg us question ourselves ( which sounds like this ). Others challenge us to overcome obstacles or let go of something. Each experience could last days or decades, depending on when we finally realize and learn.
You have not lost your passion, FloweredOne; but, I do feel the struggle within you. Remember, 'Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.' Keep the faith, but most importantly, Believe. Because Jesus didn't ask them to pray for faith, but belief.
XO
You have not lost your passion, FloweredOne; but, I do feel the struggle within you. Remember, 'Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.' Keep the faith, but most importantly, Believe. Because Jesus didn't ask them to pray for faith, but belief.
XO
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2nd Dec 2019 3:11am
Awe Avahati........your insight to this is so gracious.......I now understand this circumstance that has come to me.......your right......all I need is “faith”.......cause regardless......there’s always souls that luv me and except me for who I am.......I know Jesus never stops luving me.......thank you for your inspiring and heart touching words.........purple luv & hugs xo :)
2nd Dec 2019 3:16am
Not sure if you've lost the passion in you, but luving others more than you luv yourself is ok, it's respectable.
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2nd Dec 2019 3:29am
Hey Billy........thank you for your take on this......I have selfish moments where I think I should be more important in the lives of others who I luv dearly.......sometimes I don’t believe in myself enough........appreciate you.......purple luv & hugs xo :)
2nd Dec 2019 3:32am
Just find a suitable balance that works for you honey, that's all you can do really, for your own sanity if nothing else. :-)
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2nd Dec 2019 3:44am
Awe Billy......thank you for such sound advice........I’ve been working on that and have made decisions I’ve needed to make.......my stress level has gone down immensely 🌸
2nd Dec 2019 3:46am
2nd Dec 2019 4:02am
Yes you do Billy.......hey “sometimes” is better than “no times”. Me a “legend”? You’re too kind my friend.......tipping my humble pen to you with respect and thanking you from my heart to yours 🌸
2nd Dec 2019 10:07am
2nd Dec 2019 5:58pm
Hey 22......I always write with my heart and a piece of me in every ink.......it’s the only way for me.......thank you for your visit.......purple luv & hugs xo :)
2nd Dec 2019 6:16pm
I’m feeling one great emotion between the lines of your wonderful writing: doubt.
But I’ve learned one big lesson in the past: doubts are like a certain inside duality.
Doubts are the engine making us going forward, searching to be the best “us” possible.
But it also can be a room with no doors... falling the walls from doubt to doubt.
Find the balance between those two options and you will know the answer.
Ps: loving the people around you, taking care of them.. that’s the prove you are an unique person.
Don’t change that
But I’ve learned one big lesson in the past: doubts are like a certain inside duality.
Doubts are the engine making us going forward, searching to be the best “us” possible.
But it also can be a room with no doors... falling the walls from doubt to doubt.
Find the balance between those two options and you will know the answer.
Ps: loving the people around you, taking care of them.. that’s the prove you are an unique person.
Don’t change that
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2nd Dec 2019 6:25pm
Awe Didi.......what grace of wisdom you’ve left me.......wave of emotion just ran thru me........a tear down my cheek.......thank you so much for this......you’ve made me smile.......purple luv & hugs xo :)
2nd Dec 2019 7:39pm
I hope that tear wasn’t a to sad one lovely Purle
And for that wave of emotion... I had the same while reading your words here
😘✨😍
And for that wave of emotion... I had the same while reading your words here
😘✨😍
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4th Dec 2019 2:36am
Awe Didi.......not a sad tear......a gentle one like a raindrop of luv......I hope your “wave of emotion” was filled with gentle vibes.......thank you 🌸
2nd Dec 2019 8:49pm
You should believe in yourself and your abilities, Flower. And, judging from your work, you have a beautiful and generous soul. You bring out the best in me whenever I read you. This contains darkness and doubt, but you have much glory, and luv, to share. You have become one of my favorite writers here. You have been for quite some time, in any case.
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4th Dec 2019 2:49am
Awe Crow........I sighed deeply as I read your words........I’m so happy to see you back.......hope you’re feeling well. An Amazing soul you are Crow......you’ve always been one of my favs here........your encouragement always a blessing.......thank you believing in me and for helping me have more faith.......purple luv & hugs xo :)
3rd Dec 2019 2:40am
And my dear...did you really read all these people words...from all of your friends. YOU are SO loved here and in all spaces of your life. Because of your kind, loving heart and your wicked ways lol... You are the balance of love and pain. Joy and sorrow. And because you have known it you pen it with a defined grace. You are my friend and I support you always so if you don't believe me when I say the supportive words then look back at this and see how much you are loved and appreciated... Angel or Devil lol...xoxoxo
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4th Dec 2019 3:10am
Awe Lily......I read them all including yours.......I feel very luved and sort of foolish for doubting myself......you know all the decisions I’ve made lately and how hard some were.......but I needed to make them.......even though some made me feel selfish......out of sync with myself........in the end though it was healthier for me.......you and I have shared every emotion possible with each other over many years........we’ve luved the naughty and nice......Angel and devil sides of each other.......thank you for a beautiful lasting friendship in which I cherish with all my heart........purple luv & hugs xo :) 😇😈
5th Dec 2019 1:45am
Can’t imagine you ever becomin, uncaring, n selfish. U gots too much heart my dear 😊
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Yesterday 4:43pm
Awe Poet.......you’re too sweet.....thank you for smiling upon my ink......purple luv & hugs xo :)
5th Dec 2019 5:51pm
Flower, we fight the temptations of our flesh, world ,and enemy all the time, we are so lucky to be able to give all that to God in our times of need. Our struggles shape us and strengthen us in mid, body , spirit, heart and will which is why we give ourselves over to him that would only want the best for us as his children.
Rom 8:31
What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?
Rom 8:31
What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?
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Yesterday 4:48pm
Hey TIG.......always a blessing when you visit my ink.......I admire your strength and faith in Christ......thank you for sharing your wisdom........purple luv & hugs xo :)
