How much can you hurt me before I learn not to forgive you?

An honest spill, I definitely feel it!
Maybe the best we can do is just promise ourselves that we won't drink that poison the next time.... and then the next.... and then the time after that.
Bit by bit, we can move on.
Nice expression.

Yah  Neh...
That's all I think we can do
Cause it does seem like we won't ever move on...

Thank you for stopping by

painful write dearest poet
I'm afraid I'm the poison in my marriage
and yet I feel like you do like my world will be over
when he leaves...

I felt this deeply...

love Brenda ❤

you are of the most honest and courageous  people i know,
to be able to admit to yourself that you are the toxic one in a relationship and try not to spend time pointing fingers at the other party...
to me that means you are worth redemption and you have already started with the biggest step (acceptance)....

i'm glad you enjoyed and felt this write
thank you Brenda

I've been in toxic situations like this. At some point you have to learn to love yourself more than them or else it'll lead to your downfall.

very true, at some point you need to learn to love yourself more than someone else for you can't tell if someone has your best interest at heart or just pushing their own agenda...

there's an African proverb that says "ho robala wa motho ke ho fetoha"
it means when someone sleeps they turn

thank you fellow poet  

Letting go is one of the most difficult lessons someone can learn, Poet.  We exhaust ourselves loving another, hoping such love will change them.  When, in reality, it may be enabling them.  Love isn't always a bed of roses to lie down in at the end of a rough day; it's a bed of nails, a sharp reality meant to wake those asleep.  

I wish you the best in this lesson, but know you will walk through it.  

you've said it better...
love is a trial and like all other trials it's a test filled with ups and downs..

there's a saying that says letting go its a good sign that you're alive,
only if it was easy we all should learn to let go, sometimes is those who think we are saving that are killing us

thank you dear Ahavati

There are those who are sincere in their apologies and those who are not. Actions inform you of which is which. You have to decide if you are worthy of better; therein lies the real struggle that you present to the readers. Good luck in that, PoT.

very true, actions speak louder than words
yet in reality we are all blinded when it comes to love
we are quick to forgive and then hurt ourselves later on....

thank you jB

I think we have a need to forgive...just to cleanse our souls...friend Poet.
The trick is in not forgetting...
our memory can give us strength...or at least understanding...so never again must we blind ourselves to reality.
At least we can go in...eyes wide open...
Forewarned is forearmed... be true to you...hugs, Ely

words of adage, very powerful indeed...
forgiveness is the key yet we shouldn't let it blind us..
i agree with you sometimes its better to walk the plank with our eyes wide open

thank you great Ely

it's said "the truth can kill what love cant save"
we cant always have it our own way, we just have to make due with what we have....

thank you great AEMelia