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Scared

Why can't you belive that I'm faithful?
Why do you keep thinking that one of these days
I'm going to get up and leave you?
You insist that you love me more than I love you
Because I'm the only one who's
Tried to hit undo
But in all of these attempts
I never wanted to leave
I just wanted to make sure
You wanted to stay with me

I wanted you to ask me to come back
I wanted to make sure that love
Wasn't something we lacked
But I believe that all of them were a big mistake
Because getting passed them is like
Trying to find a needle in a haystack

Two of those times I was kidding
And the other two, I didn't want you to have to
Deal with me anymore
All we did was argue
And I was ready to die
I cut deeper and deeper every single time
I didn't want you to have to go through that
Because I knew you didn't like me in the first place
Why put you through something horrible
When I could just hit the backspace?
And the other time was in the beginning of our relay
When your iPod wouldn't stop sending me the same thing
I didn't know what to do and I was getting sooo frustrated
I figured calling us off would be a safe bet for you to stop
But you kept going
So I assumed that was your way of saying you wanted me gone
Turns out it was a glitch in the system
And you asked me to stay
And that's when all the break up jokes and attempts were played
I never wanted to leave because of you
It was because I wanted you to be happy again
Not dealing with some sick, silly woman

You don't love me more than I love you
I love you just as much as you love me
And it's really frustrating when you talk about me leaving
I'm not leaving you for Tyner!
So stop saying that I am
Carlos, don't you think that if I wanted him
I would've had him by now?
My feelings for him left WAY before April 19th!
But he can still make me laugh
Without you thinking I'm flirting!
But you think so anyways,
And we're back to the drawing board

I don't try to do things to hurt you
But I can't say the same about you
You purposely hug Felicia to make me angry
And don't say that you don't
Because I heard you
You think I'm leaving you for Tyner,
Well damnit I think you're leaving me for her
I don't care if you say ya'll are just friends
Or if she says it's a bro/sis relationship
Brother and sister don't get really close
together in the face to where they're almost making out
They don't do all the other stuff you do with her either....

You have your hates and I have mine,
But I doubt either of us will ever believe
That neither of us are lying.
Written by Leila_Selene
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