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the ego never cries
the day scream larceny through razor lips
it claimed I robbed it of its honesty
my shadow looked guilty of the theft
maybe my soul knew something I didn't
it hung back when the emotional Sheriffs showed up
my pockets were shaken down and I was searched
but no tears could be found
there were pain and anger
but the salty evidence of the emotion was missing
heavy with a feeling to no relief
the day scream thief!!!
it was robbed of its personal truth
denial had stolen its essence
there would be no justice today
the guilty party got off scotfree
hiding out in the ego
where tears are held, hostage
there will be no release for me
cos I don't cry, not ever
Author's Note
I haven't cried in about nine years
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Re. the ego who never cries
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21st Nov 2019 00:50am
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Re: Re. the ego who never cries
21st Nov 2019 00:59am
thank you beautiful one for the love on this write...crying is wonderful, feeling is wonderful you're blessed...
love you lady...
love Brenda ❤
love you lady...
love Brenda ❤
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21st Nov 2019 1:23am
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Re: Re. the ego who never cries
21st Nov 2019 1:49am
thank you graciously dearest Skyblue for sharing your own experiences with tears or missing tears here I deeply appreciate it...
love Brenda ❤
love Brenda ❤
Re. the ego who never cries
21st Nov 2019 2:01am
We know that it's been at least ten years but when it comes and it will. Because there is no such a thing as never in this universe, it's one of the rules. You will be the next flood and it will be painful, but it will also be beautiful. The release alone will be well worth the wait, nice
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Re: Re. the ego who never cries
21st Nov 2019 2:03am
thank you graciously dearest Me for a very thoughtful comment I believe you're right the tears are brewing...
love Brenda ❤
love Brenda ❤
Re: Re. the ego who never cries
21st Nov 2019 2:32am
Re: Re. the ego who never cries
21st Nov 2019 3:10am
Re. the ego who never cries
21st Nov 2019 3:39am
I actually looked up what the average amount of crying is once. I ended up feeling rather alarmed about myself.
Perhaps some of us are just doing all the crying for those of you who don't....
Anyway, we all have different ways of keeping our heads from exploding. It just is what it is.
Perhaps some of us are just doing all the crying for those of you who don't....
Anyway, we all have different ways of keeping our heads from exploding. It just is what it is.
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Re: Re. the ego who never cries
21st Nov 2019 3:54am
thank you beautiful poetess I used to have the release that comes from crying that was before I got put on psych meds I think they may be repressing my emotions...though they also suppress things that need be suppressed...I deeply appreciate your thoughts here...
love Brenda ❤
love Brenda ❤
Re: Re. the ego who never cries
21st Nov 2019 4:00am
I've been there. The meds were necessary and got me over a hump. I've been fortunate not to have to stay on them (although I sometimes wonder if that was the right decision...). I remember not being able to write because I had no access to my feelings - I'm glad you don't have that problem, your writing is wonderful!
Anyway, we do what we have to do to get through life. I wish you wellness and peace. xx
Anyway, we do what we have to do to get through life. I wish you wellness and peace. xx
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Re: Re. the ego who never cries
21st Nov 2019 4:06am
thank you lovely and kind lady...sometimes it's like looking at my feelings through glass I feel them just not as strongly...I am severely bipolar with psychotic episodes or delusions in other words even with the meds they sometimes occur so there is really no other option...your warmth is felt deeply...
love Brenda 💕
love Brenda 💕
Re. the ego who never cries
21st Nov 2019 5:45am
Dear B,
Wow! This piece made me sit back and think about this particular human ability. It’s sometimes a strange action isn’t?
I’d heard a long time ago that when we expel heavy sighs we are crying on the inside. I always found that interesting when I notice myself doing that and realizing I’m sad about something and not shedding visible tears.
This is a very insightful work. “my shadow looked guilty of the theft ” I love this line. Crafty little beggars those shadows. Great write! H🌷
Wow! This piece made me sit back and think about this particular human ability. It’s sometimes a strange action isn’t?
I’d heard a long time ago that when we expel heavy sighs we are crying on the inside. I always found that interesting when I notice myself doing that and realizing I’m sad about something and not shedding visible tears.
This is a very insightful work. “my shadow looked guilty of the theft ” I love this line. Crafty little beggars those shadows. Great write! H🌷
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Re: Re. the ego who never cries
21st Nov 2019 6:01am
thank you beautiful Honoria for such a thoughtful comment I'm so happy to see you on my pages tonight...yes I often sigh too and that brings relief too... I love your insight...
love Brenda ❤
love Brenda ❤
Re. the ego never cries
21st Nov 2019 5:40pm
You need to watch The Secret Garden, Brenda. The 1993 version . . . I posted a clip of it on one of your recent posts - the incantation. It is no coincidence this is happening.
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Re: Re. the ego never cries
21st Nov 2019 6:24pm
you know I do need to say that was one of my cherished books as a child I love the scene you shared with me...thank you for sharing with me today it makes think of how I would pretend to run away to the forest inside my grandma's garden...it's a good memory...I deeply appreciate you...
love Brenda 🌹
love Brenda 🌹
Re: Re. the ego never cries
21st Nov 2019 6:25pm
Re: Re. the ego never cries
21st Nov 2019 6:31pm
oh I see yes I felt tears coming today when I was with my psychiatrist in the fifteen years I've been seeing her I've never told her about my abandonment or my schizophrenic real mom today it came up I was on the verge of tears but I would not allow them...something rises up in me and doesn't allow that freedom...anyway you were discussed today as well how you proved so much to me with your actions alone...to be a true friend ❤
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21st Nov 2019 7:17pm