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STAY ALIVE (you can't save your soul...)

written for my brother Michael J Phillips

Trying to piece the heart back together
All the right words that come out wrong
Somewhere between hope and brokenness
Speaking of love when it just feels like a song

Bring us back from mere words and into reality
When circumstances are lies
Chains are an illusion when you don't know that you're free
We're still learning to open our eyes

The story tells of our darkest hour
When it all adds up as if to say
We're starved for the light and looking for power
When the sun doesn't quite shine bright enough today

Separated by time, miles, and silence
On the other-side of a world away
One's perspective is another's blindness
When one's sense of color is another's sense of gray

Break from the pattern
Just tell it like it is
How did everything we know
Decay to ruin and end up like this

Trying to write a letter to save another life
To tell you that you are not alone
As I speak of faith in the face of uncertainty
Finding and yet still searching for home

When your heart breaks
My heart is breaking for you
When every breath hurts and you're doing what it takes
But you're still trying to convince yourself of what you know is true

I feel it, but I deny its right to tell me what to believe
When it's all we can do to muster the courage
Heart like a broken compass, lost for desire's divided

I've been there when everything fails
And it's all you can do to just survive
But even when it hurts to keep on breathing
I promise you it's worth it if you just stay alive

Years and distance between us
I know what it's like on the other-side of those walls
You feel like a captive in a place you seek to be restored

Hopelessness is a lie contrived of heartsickness
For hopes deferred when it all feels meaningless
You'll find something on the other-side of nothingness

When life feels like an empty promise
Through the filter projected of you
Confidence is a shaky foundation
Forget the affliction when it's all you can do

After our ways are exhausted
And we've made an understatement of truth
Reveling in the vainglory of misery
When death is all you know and your sin is the proof

Every stone cast is the way you judge yourself
After the esteem of your pride becomes debt to conscience's toll
And you're crying out for help
Dying on the inside, you realize, you can't save your soul...
cloventongue89
Written by cloventongue89 (Nathaniel Peter)
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Author's Note
This was written for my brother who went through a rehab kind of facility for drug addicts called teen challenge who then was a leader on campus but recently relapsed and tried to kill himself by...
This was written for my brother who went through a rehab kind of facility for drug addicts called teen challenge who then was a leader on campus but recently relapsed and tried to kill himself by swallowing a full bottle of aspirin. He's currently been admitted in a psych ward but will be reprocessed into the Teen Challenge program and hopefully get and stay clean...
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