(F)anguish

She dont know
No she dont know how I'm feeling
I give her a piece of mind but she find sex more appealing
So I just..vape this kush to sleep on ceilings
Staring at the sun concealed bed in reminiscent of normalcy
Slowly realizing this lost boy waiting on his half..who is Alicing
Bottle full of wine consisting erythro
Cite the days she been wondering as I aveeno
My body forever young with bitesfull of mischief
Presenting presents by the viles baby why hoard all of this gift
She dont know the importance of my need for her to be attentive
Keep looking the wrong way, you'll be dreaming of ways separation couldve been preventive
Shades out into the light, I see them birds hawkin
She obliviously swoops in on active nights and..and I dont feel like talkin
Blanks withdrawled
Silenced recalls
Pissing upon stalls
Another repetitional brawl
Simply remark with a please baby dont be angry
Im sorry I just been busy, I'll do anything to rid the shame, please
But I dont believe her, periphrals always decieve her
Percieve her as holy, pure to the bone and gris
My demented mind to her word, is an atheist
Dont you see these tired eyes as dawn arise
Kisses as the skies rearrange, reorganize..
I feel it coming on again
Reconcil, then shes gone again
Back to the ceiling with an intact bed..nah, I dont wanna be alone again
Burn to flames, ashes in hand, wool over vision
Underground inhabitant recovering excision
Broke the foundation I once stood on so I can never be ya mannequin (/man again)
Turfed it for the next..hopefully you dont kill him ya know, become queen of the damned..again