never love

 
twist the knife deeper
with your silence so cold
as I enter the understanding
of never love

it's a barren place
void of color and ideas
anger lives here
knowing I was never loved

instead, it was a lie used to control
not really a feeling
more of a tool

such a foolish lady I am
down to my matching emotions and t-shirt
you told me who to hate
and like a good dog I obeyed

deciding for myself this time you are angry
you can hate me
but I'll say this, you never really knew me

if you meant I love you it wouldn't be shaken so easily
over what?
nothing more than pettiness

really I'm hurting but I'm getting angry
what was I to you a tool. a puppet?
I should have realized
going with my heart would enrage you

I've never had an enemy until you
you chose them all
as they got too close to me
this one is wrong because of ABC

they were your nemesis
so I took them on as mine
wearing your colors and waving your flag

that's it I'm taking a stand
I have feelings of my own