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My Body and I

my body and i, we've never really had the best past
i would damage her because of the words people said
never first choice, always picked last
i felt so poorly, sometimes i believed that i'd be better off dead
two counselors later and a few marks on my wrist
my doctors told me to make a list
of all the things i loved about my body
i'd look in the mirror and my face would twist
i'd start with my eyes, small but stunning
maybe my face? no, it jiggles while running
my scars how i love and hate them so
they show me where i've been and how much i've got to grow
my list would end there
i'm not too fond of laying my emotions bare
the sixteen years i've been alive
perfection is the state in which i strive
i realize that while other girls may seem fine
they skip the hours and hurt themselves
to cut down the days they dine
throughout my journey, jumping through doctors
i've done nothing but reevaluate and prosper
i am still not content with where i am
but i look good in my jeans and i refuse to give a damn
my sister cries, her eyes stinging
not tears of sadness
she's just happy to hear me again, talking more and singing
about two months later, the third chsir in her office is where i sit
my doctor asked me about the progress of my list
now i look in the mirror and my face still twists
not because i am unhappy with myself
but because it took me so long, more than seven months of being strong
to choose myself over the words people said
i decided to pick up my self hate and put it back on the shelf
because the hurt i inflicted on my mind, body, and soul
could have been classified as a crime against oneself
my body is beautiful, despite the words of others
and i vow to always choose myself over the words of another.
Written by samehdi (Samira)
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Author's Note
this poem means a lot to me. i wrote the begining of it when i was in a dark place, but now after months of recovery i opened up my notebook and decided to finish it, but in the right mindset.
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