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For Mira

Itís a funeral. Itís a loss. Thatís why there are no words.
  
Thereís nothing documented between
Aardvark †
And †
Zyzzyva †
That can fill the void †
Of you †
In my life,  
Nor frame  
My utter  
Devastation  
†  
Nothing †
That will unwound you, but †
The day is long and †
Boring, so †
I fucking dance, †
Kick up my †
Heels, †
Amidst †
The dim †
Procession †
†  
I fuck stupid †
I, stupid fuck †
I, Exilis †
I fuck things up †
†  
Hey, ditty ditty †
And thereís nothing pithy, thereís †
Only †
Ache †
That rises from the †
Disturbed †
Earth of its †
Frequented †
Grave, †
To haunt, to †
Dog †
My thinning steps †
†  
In the focal crux †
Of your disappointment, every †
Gesture †
Bent †
By the dire †
Gravity of your †
Frigid †
Distance, †
If I †
Were more †
Than words, †
Words wouldnít have been enough †
To warrant barbs, you openly †
Justified, in their †
Application †
†  
So, hereís my lash †
And when †
Itís quiet, weíll play †
Tag †
And press sheets †
Of paper †
To the wounds †
†  
Pollock was an alcoholic, but I †
Have you, †
Your spectre, †
To blood me †
†  
So crucify me in your cruelly †
Unmovable †
Characterization, †
For my missteps, †
And call it †
Justice, †
Just desserts, †
Plum pudding, †
Blood sausage †
And in this paradigm of †
Utter †
Absurdity, we †
Find ourselves †
Hurled about a †  
Dark cosmos, where †
Twenty years †
Of solitude †
Are rewarded †
By a sumptuous meal, before †
A clinical execution, †
Witnessed †
By interested parties †
†  
Draw back the curtain, only †
So far, †
Hold up the billet, †
For all †
To see, †
Hear ye, hear ye, †
I wasnít good enough, †
I didnít measure †
Up, †
Weíre too fucking perfect †
For each other, †
Too fucking perfect, †
So, †
Replace me †
With someone better, †
Build them a fucking monument, †
So you can drape me †
In its cold shadow †
†  
Iím here, apparently, the greater evil, †
Neck bowed †
By a disproportionate †
Weight †
Of Machiavellian horns, †
On this corner †
Of abandonment †
†  
Iíll moisten the old tape †
Wrapped †
Around my heart, †
Smooth it down †
With a thumb and when it †
Curls †
Back up, Iíll †
Do it over, and Iíll †
Do it again, †
My motherís arthritis has flared up, so †
Iíll make her breakfast †
And smile at the inane game shows that †
Divert †
Her attention †
†  
Later, †
Iíll squat beside Archimedes †
And chalk the floors †
†  
And on the social sites Iím something †
Dread †
Awed, †
Like a gorilla †
Behind bars, †
Unapproachable, †
Somewhere between its gargantuan
Beauty and unpredictable †
Might †
Or †
They collect me like †
Baseball cards †
To fill a plastic sleeve †
Between †
Thursday and †
January and †
Nothing †
That I am †
Is felt, †
Just like you †
†  
Iím not human †
To any of you, †
Iím just an alphabet †
†  
All we are and †
Have been, is †
Lost †
In wars, †
Innumerable, †
In their destructive †
Force †
†  
We're tossing and †
Turning †
In the bed †
We've unmade †
And all I say is †
(Miss) †
Construed †
For pride †
And the wound †
Grins its 26 †
Teeth †
Through the screen †
And why is sometimes a vowel †
†  
Rain seeps through †
Overhead †
Cracks and when †
Fallen †
In abundance, †
Creeps †
Under doors †
†  
If Iím nothing real to you, †
You surveyor of †
Letters, †
Picture me as †
Pots and †
Brooms, imagine me †
As echoed †
Wounds, †
Circling avenues †
†  
If you hear nothing else, hear †
My truth,
 
There are no words.
 
Hear my †
Footfalls, †  
As I search for you
DanielChristensen
Written by DanielChristensen (The Fire Elemental)
Published
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