The Night of a Whisper

See me in the night of a whisper.
I will wait until the day I die
To drink this cup, never mine.
I never wake or stir
I need no reason why
As long as I can see you shine.
I am dark, and I am afraid
You’ll see through the masquerade
If in my eyes you see
The heart that tortures me.

I don’t know if I’m made of clay.
I want to be whole some summer day.
And when I am with you
I feel it will come true.
You found me with my scars;
Showed me skies of stars.
They are in your eyes
Where I see paradise.
I want to kiss your brow.
I wish you’d kiss me now.
I want to hold your hand
And pray you understand
I don’t mean to be this way
In the things I do, and the things I say.
But when I look at you
I feel my dreams come true.

If you ever felt for me,
I wish all that we could be.
Perhaps that is my grave?
“Here lies the one we could not save”
I wish that you felt the same
I wish I could be sane
I don’t know what to do
I’m scared of losing you.
I want to give the sun
I want you to be The One.
But now I am bleeding
And the beast is feeding
Is there balm in my kingdom come
Or is it love we are running from?

© 2019 Marten Hoyle