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Ive listened to a dvd menu to a movie that ended hours ago for far too long.
I wanna stop the repetition but the fear of what the silence will bring prevents that.
I cant sleep tonight, not that i even have the urge to.
But the pillow does feel pretty nice when its dry.

Pretending was too fun for not enough,
Now pretending seems like a talent, a trick i forgot the steps of.
I don't want to remember.
But theres a lot of things that come to mind that i wouldnt mind forgetting.
And i do,
I forget them all,
Until its 4am and my mind searches the halls.

I blocked all the door ways,
Threw away the pictures,
Yet in one room all the blocked parts just sit there.
Theres an unspoken agreement of distance,
Knowing the clash of the two would end us.

We admire from afar,
Cause if they felt eachothers bond,
Theyd find out their the same and have been all along.
The murderer is equal to the preacher,
But fuck it, doesnt matter, no one will believe her.