I’m not okay

I’m not okay.
My mind is putty in your hands as play dough
You are happy... well great for you cause to me that sounds lonely...
That is because we are all lonely because we are all alone from ant to lion to human to angel every last one of us .
“ Jeff’s cracked , he is total coco puffs “.
Jeff you know you’re not always right...
Why ? Cause we all have each other?
Yes.
They say it is better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all
But when you have lost in love you wish you never loved at all.
I don’t think I am hot 🥵 cause I lack self esteem
What I do defines me ... it’s like a dictionary , things are looking up.
I’ll push to push you away and if you don’t budge I’ll start pounding away
Cause that is what I go through everyday in my mind so I wanna put you through what I go through of which I have no right to , so why should I try to... so just leave me alone to be alone
Yeah but Jeff check it , no problem ever got better by avoiding it.
I’m not looking for physical features unless you’re a redhead 👩‍🦰 haha but on the real though... I’m only interested in a partner than one in appearance.
So before you tell someone you love them ask yourself how much of it you can tolerate.
Flock of ravens is called the unkindness
I deserve to die ...
Jeff I know you think this ... that you are not enough for those who love you , that you never will be...
I am tired of how in life people always think of what they can take ... when they ought to be thinking of what they can give ...
You have no clue as the hand full of us do what it’s like growing your own root!!! There’s no gardener ... no guide just a normal plant in the bush no wonder minds are clustered, guarded and thorny
They say you don’t know what you have till it’s gone
Guess what ... knowing what you have you still lose no matter what.... whenever I feel alone I will always be cause I fail at connecting, I’m always buffering cause I don’t want your concern ( concentration) to end and you move on to the next like “ yeah that was great while it lasted” just the thought of it hurts like pens and needles .... I hate the guy I see in the mirror like a nightmare
Jeff Jeff Jeff Jeff !!!! Hakunamatata!
Really ???? Hakunamatata? Really ...? That’s your come back ? A lion king reference? ...
yeah plus putt all your anxieties on .....
yeah let’s not go there .... we both know the outcome.