Trying My Best

I've been here for nearly two months
My room isn't the way I want it
Half unpacked boxes stacked high
Clothes on the floor, piles everywhere
What can I do? What should I do?
To stop this feeling I've made a mistake
Was moving here a mistake?
I never wanted to be here, not again
Not this neighborhood, not this town
The fear inside me is growing fast,
Clawing and trying to escape my chest
I stay inside and try to do the things I need to
I've set up the kitchen and the living room
The bathroom isn't what I want, but who cares?
Who cares if my mental health is cracking,
Snapping under the pressure of change?
I don't know if this will get better
I don't see how this will get better
Packing, unpacking, move this box here
Move this box there, why can't I settle down?
Over and over I scream inside my mind
Just do the thing, just unpack one box
Just wash one load of laundry, sort one thing out
Apply to one job, get on the computer just once
Please, stop avoiding the problems! Please...
The money won't last forever, this time won't last forever
And the noose is only tightening the longer,
The more time you take, the less time you will have
Prepare for the fall, the final snap
I simply can't do this and I am afraid.