Tears fall as I try to understand why.
Why has my body denied me.
Why my body has failed.
Why my body hates me.
Everyone around me, it seems, is having babies. While for a year Iíve done nothing but try and try, just to fail each and every time.
Iíve done everything right. Iíve given myself the very best chances, yet, it wasnít enough. My body is not good enough.
I denied fate, calling her a liar. I am meant to have a baby. I gave in to the false hope as I pushed fate away.
Today, I accepted her. Today my eyes burn with the reality, as the tears continue falling. Today my heart aches as I finally welcome fate with heavy arms.
You win. I give up. Just take this pain away. I wonít play into false hope again, Iím a failure as a woman.