Free

I'm gonna pop a little pill
So all the bullshit goes away
Don't want to feel anything right now
I just want to go to space
Trying to forget everything
That ever mad me mad
Let the good vibes take control of me
So I can forget why I'm sad

I'm so sick of the anxiety
The hatred and the rage
Trying to move on but
It's like my mind is in a cage
There's no getting ahold of it
So I write my pain on this page
Knowing I'm not the only one
Praying for better days

Pop another half a pill
Waiting for that feeling
When I'm numb to all around me
And I think that I am healing

All I want is peace of mind
To smile like nothing's wrong
I want to forget who I am
And where I think I belong

I have it pretty good
But my mind is in a prison
I don't know how else to escape
No matter how good the reason
I'm just left in the dark
Repeatedly picking up the pieces

Just help me end the hurting
The fight within myself
The demons keep on winning
It's to hard to ask for help

Because I do love the feeling
Of being so comfortably high
You don't feel the guilt
Or like you have the need to cry

Everyone that hurt me
Are no longer a thought
The negativity and fights
Are simply long gone

I'm free again..

Even though I'm not myself
I feel as if I am
I never wanted to be an addict
It wasn't part of my plan

I'm just trying to get through
I just want to get by
Even if I'm dying
I'm still trying to survive

All I want to hear is laughing
My family and my friends
Are really what keep me going
Until the very end
I don't hardly trust anyone
Barely let people in
I've seen too much betrayal
So my hearts locked up again

But I pop a pill to let it all go
So I have no fear
Of what's in the unknown
Just let me do me
So I can have peace