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love is something to fear

again again I'm back where i was
i swore I'd given up
nothing but pain and it hurts

bittersweet blood on my fingertips
purple sheets wrinkle as i lay on them
heat is all i crave
i just pray i don't end up that way

you scare me in all the good ways
please, God, don't make me beg
help me not to be blind again

it's not regret just worry
that im not enough
that im not worthy
that i move too fast and need to slow down
why can't i breathe right now?

dreaming of you fucking me
dreaming of loving me
don't want that to be a fantasy
so please don't ever hurt me

i tell you things that I haven't told to anyone
you have all my trust
don't make my heart hurt
because i want this to work

only you
just you
make me smile
make me laugh
make feel the need to dance

i hate being young
people think they know what you're made of
like we are all the same
but baby i promise im not that way
i don't do the crazy shit you think
i sit in the back and dream of better days

people my age want to party and fuck
i just want love
something to call mine
to love and take care of through stormy night
although some may say it's a cliche
i promise i will always love that way

as long as you promise me
a family of my own
a nice home and happy days
snow outside, bright lights and Christmas movies
dark sky, spooky lights, and candy

someone to love scares me
because what if you see me how i see me?
then i am not worthy
then you hurt me
there won't be love for me
so that's why i ask you to stay with me
i promise you will never find anyone with my loyalty

love, relationships, and bonds are scary
Written by Queen_of_darkness
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