loyal to my past self

i sit in the darkness and cry
does it even matter why?
i know I'll be alright
just wipe my tears and fight

i am temporary
come to me when you need me
use me up and deceive me
tell me that you hear me

let the morphine make me numb
until i can't get up
love is never enough
is it tears or blood that they want?

temporary is what you think of me
they watch me bleed
walk over my dead body
they hear my screams
but say nothing
because i am temporary

let my feet guide me to the past
kicked in the head, stomach, and back
still, i smile and say "I love you" like a dumbass
I promised i would never go back to that

but it can't be helped, i am temporary
use me and deceive me when you need me
i'll protect you as you watch me bleed
i'll give you all you need
as long as you promise not to leave
because i don't want to be temporary