werbepause xvii ~ {blood consciousness ii}

she fades inside me,
a frail succubus
triple digit lips
sucking an empty cock]
a shadoe ov me
consum'd by proxy_
i feel her wilt
in the unfamiliar stain
ov peony
flourishing on porcelain,
our tongues tied
[a slip knot
ov profanity & filth]
my urinal mouth, mute ...
... in my husk,
the desecrated temple
ov my cunt,
coyly wither with her
unable to peel myself
from shyness
[who is this
uncertain whore,
this tentative harlot,
this timid slut]
fill'd with shame
whose come-hither strut
stutters in fuck-me heels

{&} when i spread the waxen pallor ov my thighs
push you into myself, forge that act ov communion
{writhe & mewl
& claw need-yous
into my own hips}
i despise the bite ov pain, the scarr'd hieroglyphs rap'd into me_

it lurks.
somewhere inside me;
all that was lost
howling behind my eyes
where the pieces
are pastich'd to a whole_
& i have never liv'd
in the cracks ov myself
until this,
looking to drink from
my stillborn essence '
once so proud
ov how i bent
myself into a sutra
how i laugh'd
even as i broke

i am going to spend my days
loving men just like you, the ones who fuck their oedipus complex
into the corpse ov my potential.
& i hate you a little more with each moment i am fearful ov how i put myself together
as tho i am too much ov everything
too little ov anything
because my self-worth lies
Written by _shadoe_ (katyusha)
Author's Note
i am a mute songbird
d'nud'd ov feathers

behold my fucking bones
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