Something along the lines of he's fine, there's nothing wrong with him

dearest Carpe I can't imagine what you've been through...though in some ways I can because I've lost in this life but your pain is you're own... I feel for your ache...stay strong...

love Brenda ❤

The pain is the individuals alone, how they choose to deal with it is what makes or breaks I guess

Thank you dearest Brenda

Pain is more damaging then the hurt but some of US get pass it while others just play the victim looking for self pity party for two wrongs don't make it right for be that one that stands up and fight for after all it is life...nicely written

I truly hate cliches at times; however, they are such for a reason.  In this case, whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger.  I am glad you're able to somewhat heal through the process of the written word, Carpe.  You will know happiness again.  

That deep dark world you are in right now, will feel darker, darkest for some time but then time doesn't function the same in there as it does out here.  It literally does not move, while the universe is moving all around you in such fast speed.
When you finally come out from there, you will feel so aged, so much older, broken, beaten, tired.
but you will find placidity.
although, do not make a mistake thinking placidity = happiness.
Happiness, will be changed as well.
It will never ever be the same.

You will be okay, just breathe.