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My Inner Masochist...
He fucks with my mind while savage
greed feeds from my soul
My inner recesses; condemned to havoc as
emotions twine 'round heart strings Sanguine fear clamors through my veins
while stuck in such bane existence Salted beads roll down my cheeks under
the cravings of a masochist
My breaths hamper, struggling as I plead
for mercy that never comes
As the pain sears, I swear my soul bleeds,
stuck in deviation I didn't consent to My heart shatters each time he tinkers &
toys with his need to be sadistically played
He tries to bend me into the submission he has, but I lack the strength for such a wicked game
I love a good hard fucking, but a sadistic fucker is an unwelcome lover to
to my flesh & bones
There is no love story when you're being fucked by the demon called, anxiety. Yet it's all my inner masochist has ever known.
Published 17th Sep 2019
| Edited 6th Jul 2020
Author's Note
Copyright © 2019 PandoraUnleashed. All rights reserved.
Of course, this wasn't about bdsm & I chose masochist vs sadist, because anxiety seems to be part of us. As much as we hate it, it seems like our minds crave what the soul doesn't. No matter what, the little demon imposes & we allow it with open arms. 🖤
Of course, this wasn't about bdsm & I chose masochist vs sadist, because anxiety seems to be part of us. As much as we hate it, it seems like our minds crave what the soul doesn't. No matter what, the little demon imposes & we allow it with open arms. 🖤
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17th Sep 2019 9:13pm
17th Sep 2019 10:02pm
17th Sep 2019 9:45pm
You chose the urban spelling for Masochist -- this in itself found me spending 15 minutes reading up on both spellings (LOL -- thank You, Beautiful)
You have to be a sub who enjoys pain else situations like this occur
This is why it's always good to chat it up about sex where nothing is covert
and each know the role they wish to play
Enjoyed the spill
You have to be a sub who enjoys pain else situations like this occur
This is why it's always good to chat it up about sex where nothing is covert
and each know the role they wish to play
Enjoyed the spill
Thank you for the correct spelling, Tallen, this area isn't my forte. Lol. It's not about true submission, but anxiety instead...
Sorry I messed you up. I was trying to surprise the reader at the end.😁
Sorry I messed you up. I was trying to surprise the reader at the end.😁
17th Sep 2019 10:42pm
You're Fine, Beautiful
I thought You chose that spelling
on purpose
Didn't surprise me
but then again, i am a former sub
I thought You chose that spelling
on purpose
Didn't surprise me
but then again, i am a former sub
17th Sep 2019 10:48pm
Ah, naughty boy;) I just wanted to lead it on as a dark bondage story with the real kicker at the end....
17th Sep 2019 10:37pm
17th Sep 2019 10:41pm
17th Sep 2019 10:54pm
Yes i did anxiety is a pain and ye messes over bad. But i found humor greatly in the way its written
17th Sep 2019 11:56pm
Awesome, Liam. I wanted to add a little humor to it.;) I hope you're doing well with your health!
17th Sep 2019 11:00pm
Anxiety can tie one in knots an leave you feeling played in a non-consensual way. You painted your angst like the master poet you are. The ending was a surprise to top them. You my friend have the gift of creating illusion and like a talented magician unveiling the trick. Truly fine work. XoXo Big Hugs John
19th Sep 2019 2:09am
Big hugs back for the wonderful comment. You never fail to uplift me. I'm glad you understood the metaphorical essense, as so many believed it to be the real deal, but you're the man of epic ones yourself! My little buddy is still with me, so I'm surprised to have spit this out yesterday...heading your way soon for some of your soul food, John. Xo
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19th Sep 2019 2:13am
Ah, I'm glad you got the true meaning & so thankful you gave it a read after all! I started to put it In the erotic category, but considering the outcome, people would really be getting me wrong for sure! I have had anxiety since childhood & never had a clue why I was so different...defo not a good feeling!
Anonymous
17th Sep 2019 11:33pm
You nailed this one to the wall, you clever little word minx
19th Sep 2019 2:15am
17th Sep 2019 11:48pm
Your body may have the anxiety disorder but your lust for sexual pain gratifies your heart and soul.... It pulls your mind into a tug of war because it is your body that is feeling the torture while your sexuality is smiling and enjoying this rodeo.... Put aside all transgressions of physical pain and just enjoy the sexual beauty of the game....
19th Sep 2019 2:21am
Hey Joe-D,
Excuse my giggles as it was me who misunderstood your graveyard piece the other day. Don't worry about confusing it as the actual act of BDSM, others did too. It was my metaphor of choice to describe the evil force of anxiety. 😄 I still greatly thank you for the read & descriptive commentary.
Excuse my giggles as it was me who misunderstood your graveyard piece the other day. Don't worry about confusing it as the actual act of BDSM, others did too. It was my metaphor of choice to describe the evil force of anxiety. 😄 I still greatly thank you for the read & descriptive commentary.
18th Sep 2019 00:37am
I thought it was a clever lead in to that unwanted affliction, I know too well. Nicely done!
19th Sep 2019 2:22am
18th Sep 2019 4:05am
19th Sep 2019 2:24am
Thank you for appreciating & adding my humble crumbs. I wish I had your exquisite abilities! ♥️
19th Sep 2019 4:23pm
18th Sep 2019 10:26am
Brava, Pandora! Anxiety is indeed a cruel sadist that abhors some long deep breaths,and fervent meditation.
19th Sep 2019 2:26am
....you forgot XANAX 😯
I've lived with it since childhood, damn it... I should be used to it by now!😱
I've lived with it since childhood, damn it... I should be used to it by now!😱
Wow what a way to bring home
to impart
To put the reader right there
at the forefront with you
I get it
Razor sharp eye opener
Wise parable
to impart
To put the reader right there
at the forefront with you
I get it
Razor sharp eye opener
Wise parable
19th Sep 2019 2:27am
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18th Sep 2019 1:25pm
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19th Sep 2019 2:28am
18th Sep 2019 3:34pm
"I love a good hard fucking, but this masochistic fucker is an unwelcome lover to my flesh & bones."
Graphic and raw.
Brutal honesty.
I savoured all of this. (;
Yours,
LostGirl
Graphic and raw.
Brutal honesty.
I savoured all of this. (;
Yours,
LostGirl
19th Sep 2019 2:30am
Thank you for your beautiful beautiful comment, Lostgirl. Your returning presence has most definitely been a welcome asset.🌷
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19th Sep 2019 2:34am
Ah, thanks HF. I truly wanted it to be a shocker in the end & almost put it in the erotic genre to fuck with people.😃 I used to drown my attacks with that brown liquid stuff you love!;)
19th Sep 2019 4:19am
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20th Sep 2019 3:08pm
This is genius! I would never have thought of portraying such a crippling affliction as anxiety in an erotic guise of context. The last line... And statement nailed it , for me. Excellent writing Pandy. I hope you can eventually turn the tables ....and F*"k anxiety. 🤗
24th Sep 2019 10:08pm
Thank you for the uplifting comment & well wishes. I just had to fool everyone, so I almost put it in the erotic section. I'm glad I didn't, as I had to emphasize ANXIETY because others went straight to the bdsm scene. Haha. I'm glad you enjoyed the narrative & I'm ever grateful for the RL add. Hugs to my word buddy!!
27th Sep 2019 7:51pm
28th Sep 2019 2:36am
27th Sep 2019 7:51pm
sweet your mind is just fulfilled its dream of the thing you love most needed that be love
nice write
enjoy your day
nice write
enjoy your day
28th Sep 2019 2:38am
Thank you, D! I had to find an epic twist to sum up the evil ugly, so why not use a sexual undertone if I can't write any of it right now. ;) Hoping you're doing well ♡
28th Sep 2019 2:47am
28th Sep 2019 3:32am
7th Oct 2019 6:47pm
Hay Pandora👋🏼. I usually read all comments but you my dear had way too many ( good thing by the way).
In your author’s note you mentioned it’s not about BDSM, honestly never read it in that way. I suffer from some things that this expresses so well it brought me to tears. Thank you for sharing this you beautiful beautiful woman.
-B💕
In your author’s note you mentioned it’s not about BDSM, honestly never read it in that way. I suffer from some things that this expresses so well it brought me to tears. Thank you for sharing this you beautiful beautiful woman.
-B💕
7th Oct 2019 10:09pm
Thank you for your praise & place on your RL. I'm grateful that people can resonate with it, I truly tried to convey that, but added it the notes since a few thought it was. There's nothing like a metaphor falling flat.. thank you for assuring me it didn't in your mind. From one beauty to the other, I appreciate you, Bonzi. Hugs from Pandy..💖
