Before that Date

 
Just the presence of you made my heart skip a beat.
But you never believed me,
so I'll just take a seat.

I'll take a seat,
way over in the back.
So I can watch her do,
all the things I lack.

You never gave me a chance to prove my loyalty.
Yet here she comes,
You treat her like fucking royalty?

Tell me why I was never enough for you.
Do you even realize anything that I do?

I always thought you were wonderful man,
Except for that time my face met your hand.

I do wish you nothing but happiness and the very best.
(They say I should say those things
so maybe my heart can rest.)

I'll never understand why I loved you so,
you never loved me....
so I think it's time to go.

Lets go back to the night before that Nicky's date,
Before I thought that meeting you was my heart's fate.

Let's go back to the days before I knew you Jocksho. 
maybe then,
my heart can finally let you go.