a Grave Fit For a Queen of Nothing

You could sit next to me
and never once hear me

scream

We could spend a thousand nights
tangled in each other's arms
and you'll never once see me

bleed

You could ask me if I'm okay
but you'll never know my pain..

I thought that if I carved it out,
the piece of me that kept me warm
I wouldn't desire anything beyond
the cold of this hell I told myself
would become my home

But all I long for now
is the warmth
of a genuine

embrace

the sweeter side of you
Im not allowed to touch-
eating away at the cavity
a hollow, fearful place I see
as desperation clawing
at my seams

Oh..
but I'm not sorry.