B(lew) L(ifes) O(blivion) W(ayward)

The anger can remain steadfast, echoing back memories we'd thought were buried deeper than the last time

Thankyou for posting & welcome to DUP

Thank you.

Nothing wrong with wanting vengeance, but it tends to eat at you. Thank you for sharing this, know you are not alone.

Though it runs through my head from time to time, my past doesn’t eat at me.

Thank you, though. :)

This is the best way to release your anger and hurt

Though i experienced physical and emotional abuse as a child (not sexual i think -- most of my childhood memories are repressed and i have no desire to dig 'em outta the grave i buried them in)
caused me to HATE my dad for about 30+ years.  When he died in 1994 i thought i'd be happy.  i wasn't. i no longer had the chance to look him in the eye and tell him ........ask him WHY
My hate and anger ate at my heart and spirit and 9 suicide attempts later, i found zen Buddhism.  I found a way to forgive my family for all the childhood abuse.  I don't think i'll ever love my dad but i no longer Hate him.

I pray You find this type of peace for Yourself some day.
AspergerPoet56, is right though, Keep writing / sharing it helps; it always helps.

i have a daily journal where i spill my feelings into it almost daily.  This helps too and every once in a while i will post what i penned into my journal here in the Deep

I’ve found my peace. Just because my past creeps up and I choke on the memories doesn’t mean I dwell there. Tis only a reminder of my strength and how happy in life I am now.

Though I’m sorry to hear about your past.

i am happy You have peace

I too have bad days and good days
I understand

Our history is there for reminding and so maybe we can help others

appreciate You

Dear Nocturnalbutterfly, I can't begin to imagine how difficult this must've been to write and publish let alone experience that trauma. Hope that over the years you've found some healing. Anger and resentment are natural emotions but that you will overcome it. Thank you for sharing and blessings.
Welcome to DUP.  

Thank you.

in that case now be a good time to give him that bullet but first place him in what is called a cane chair resting over a lot of straw sock in gas line light it and give him a butter knife not set yourself free with the knife that you have in your hand cut it off or die.
may sound cruel what was done to you was even worse

nice work

welcome to DUP

Thank you.

Though my version of a painful death for him involves more torture.

i can see that hope you fine some kind of peace of mind as i can not even start to feel that pain you carry around

keep up the good work

along with the fire two 20 penny nails driven through his scrotum  for just a bit more pain

I’d rather tie him up naked between two trees, jam a yellow funnel down his ass then fill his innards with gasoline. Once he’s nice and full, strike a match and drop it in.

now that is in my mind very painful

It takes a lot to write like this... what do I say?  What should I say? But the way you said it was pretty crystal.  Nice job.

Thanks. :)