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Death Certificate

Want to get my point across
cause to some people the concept of
grief
has been lost…
monetary compensation is what they desire
thinking cashing a fat check
will make their hearts lighter
they want to cause confusion amongst family and friends
because you think you need a certificate to collect his VA and SSI benefits?
Asking for cars, computers, cameras, scripts, awards long boards and surfboards…
not once asking me how I am doing
what’s going on in my world
which is probably a good thing
cause id let them have it
tell them I cry every fucking night
how I now sleep in the middle of the bed
because
no one side
Consoles me

I’d tell them how my dog is depressed
how she wouldn’t go into our room
how she has barely eaten for a week
and now
she wants to use the bathroom in the house

Id rant and rave about how I couldn’t change
my sheets
because the smell of him at night helped me
Fall asleep
wonder if they would get
I haven’t cooked dinner since he died
how food has no luster
and
I’ve dropped in size

I’d like to know if they could understand
my daughter is afraid to be left alone
how she feels it’s her fault
my lover is no longer around
I already know the answer
they don’t give a shit
all they care about is if I picked up
The Fucking
Death Certificate
jenjames
Written by jenjames
Published
Author's Note
Circa 2011

**Some pain never heals**
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