Here to stay

Maybe constantly trying to
 create something
causes creativity levels to plummet
drastically at times dare I say
but also allows one to hone in on
whatever creative venture or
 form of expression one specializes in,
I guess my hang up is
keeping things fresh and not trying to
copy everything I've said/done in the past as that initial level of intensity doesn't seem to last.
For me some breaks are beneficial
and necessary..
always searching for some vibe
I rarely find either in my mind or someplace within humankind,
maybe I'm chasing the rush
of how it feels to make, do, or be something entirely on your own
usually alone but not always lonely
it's a journey of self love I would say
first and foremost because how can you love or care for another or the world
if you can't do the same for yourself?
I firmly believe that expressing oneself in any capacity helps one to
 manage their mental health
 and let's the soul speak,
allows you to analyze any part of yourself or the world you want
whatever enters into or emerges from
thy inner infinities
an eternal exploration..

obsessing over originality
intensely interested in Individuality
ultimately, attempting to unleash
something unique, unequalled,
unheard of in this underrated universe
which isn't a curse to be a part of even if it comes across that way, even if
each day brings dismay or if
nothing goes your way
YOU'RE HERE TO STAY