Ramblings pt2

Electric
 euphoria
  Exploring thy self
through sonic expressions
my main obsession
releasing and expanding
the energy
the inner me
navigating the unknown
an urge to
contain the courage,
to escape the comfort zone
I've grown too attached to these days,
musically, poetically and spiritually,
It's a fantasy in which I live
most moments
except when I'm doing something
I love and value deeply
which help me to transcend everything,
the things I long to do
 all the fucking time
but never "have the time"
mostly cause I don't make the time
mainly to caught up in my mind
 as always,
tired of talking about myself
writing about my shit
saying the same shit it seems
but I don't know what else to write about
at the moment besides my day to day thoughts and the same subject seems to surface quite often so some sort of change must be made, of course I've known this all along just never been strong enough to make something happen.
I never know what these are about
 by the time I reach the point where I stop writing
which is something I think,
despite feeling a certain way,
I will never do or
I hope I will never be able to
cause this does make it seem not so bad and gives me the option to
let it all go or hold on to whatever shit I feel I'm dealing with,
my world and
my words
It's wonderful
a true personal paradise of mine
where I see I'm fine
everything's fine,
It's my heaven
or if I let it or don't give a shit or whatever it can very easily become my hell especially when I dwell.
I could keep writing forever but I find i end up right back where i started and I'm so sleepy and stoned to da boneeeeeee eyes heavy as shit
can't forget still gotta go to work damnit.