On My Own

It is instant
is it not
the pain
that i forgot
when i crossed
my needle fence
that i built
to defend
my broken mind

That lays behind
my walls
of self pity
where my
shadow thoughts
Fester
on who's to blame
Refusing
to acknowledge
that i can
 become better
then what i claim
while Desperately trying
 to Understand
that what was
Is Not
what is now
what is now
is time
Time
to face my pain
to play my fears
at their own game
to stand
head held high
drug free
on my own

All alone