"if you don't know where you're going, you can't be lost"

Lost in time..
Lost in mind..
sunk in the surrounding spaces searching for traces of serenity,
 a never ending chase through the
 inner infinities..
 getting a glimpse only for it to vanish..
the search continues
I suspect for my entire existence
which really could end in an instant
so I won't be resistant, only reluctant to rearrange this reality
I'm slightly responsible for residing in
as well as creating,
only interested in reinventing myself/my role in this realm.
Pursuing peace/pleasure through countless paths and processes, mostly, musically, poetically and spiritually which are basically all the same thing,
that's what I obsess over these days,
caught up in always trying to
"create" something,
a poem or a jam,
 both an expression of
who I feel I am
which shifts constantly yet
 stays the exact same, it all seems
like a game, going from one level
to the next, never knowing what to expect yet accepting whatever effects me or whatever I let affect me cause
 I see now
 it's all a decision I make anyhow,
I must keep moving,
keep going
keep learning
 keep growing
get back to being aligned
with the Gaian mind,
I've spent to long
living in my head,
dwelling on thoughts and fears..
don't
waste
any
more
years
Though I know you can't see clear at the moment, get back to caring and sharing love and sympathy with those who wonder and wander aimlessly just as you do.