Don't Go There

In the dark
Suicidal thoughts
How did I
Get to this place
Deep inside
I know I won't carry through
But writing the what if's
Releases the toxins that's corrupting my mind
Alone
And not feeling wanted
Leaves me in this depressional state
Money in pocket
But I choose to be hungry
Counting two days or more
Since I had a decent meal
A slice of pizza
Is all I ate last
To be exact
And the rest of this time
I won't eat
But what really gets to me
Is those individuals
Whom don't want nothing from you
The ones that has pushed me away
Said never call
Never think of me again
But when I decide to take my own life
These same individuals
Come running back
To the rescue
Now they're concerned
They want everything to be the same
But oh no
It's too late for that
You said what you had to say
You made it clear that day
When you made me feel really small
While I walked out of your door
So.....
Why cry for me now
People don't understand
Words really hurt
And I remembered everything that was said
It's all etched in my brain
You right
We'll never be the same
That's what you said
Not even friends
Stay out of my life
Please stay away
Now that I choose to go
There is nothing
You can say