Vanishing Is My Release

What is up
Some say
Always comes down
Happiness
Full I once was
But now
Even I must admit
I am down
Out there lost
No longer myself
Depressed
And lonely
But people I see daily
Eating
Less and less I take in
Added to no sleep
Blackouts occur regularly
Such a pussy
Not to take my own life out
But living
I don't care about
Others
I want to be happy
My energy
I've gave all away
Like a battery
I'm drained
Lifting others up
Left me in such a huge hole
That I made up mentally
Creating more and more that's wrong
But others cannot see
I just want to get away
My cellphone is dead
The way I like to be
Hit the highway
And never comeback again
Vanish
I would give my all
To never be seen again
And would those individuals
The ones I picked up
The ones I helped out
Would they shed a tear
After hearing about my demise
Would they be concerned
Of my whereabouts
No longer this is a test
Very soon
Those questions will be answered
But unfortunately
No longer will I be here
To view their reaction
Hopefully I'll be gone
Forever....
And forever