Still feel like an addict

I have an addict page on my face book could i use your poem and put your name on it of course to share with other recovering addicts like myself...and I feel your pain and I am sorry your going through this.

Absolutly! My name is Sarah hutchison, find me on facebook, I would love to see your page :-) and thank you for your comment!

....writing-on (one-letter-atta-time[?])

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it is hard i was on it and am off now replaced it with suboxone which is just the same i understand your pain

I was on suboxone first for a year and a half, then I got pregnant and had to switch to methadone, now I'm in the process of switching back to suboxone and then I'll ween of that. It sucks really bad!

Oh honey I totally understand your struggle. I have also been on methadone for almost three years. I went on it when i got pregnant with my daughter (my second child) and she is now 2 and a half years old. It sucks but it is better then being in the streets trying to hustle for money for pills or whatever. Its a trade off. I was on 80 mg's at my highest and I am now down to 45mgs. Slowly but surely is the way to go. My fiancee is on it as well but he is down to 14mg and honestly i don't know how he does it. But i haven't touched a drug since the day i went on methadone and that is all that matters. I kept switching back and forth from Opiates like oxycontin and hydromorphine to crack cocaine. Go on the crack to take my mind of the pill withdrawals then go back to pills because i felt it was better then smoking crack. But i would take any drug i could get my hands on really. Drugs ruined my life, i almost lost my son, went from 140lbs size 7 down to 98lbs and size 0, sold everything i owned, stole and ripped people off. I used to be the biggest goodie goodie i didn't even touch cigarettes until high school but once i tried pills once it didn't take long. If you ever need anyone to talk to or anything please don't hesitate to message me because i know EXACTLY how you feel. Keep your head up hun and stay strong. Just go down a little at a time. I am going down 2 mgs every two weeks and honestly i dont even notice a difference.

I got on methadone from suboxone when I got pregnant with my last child. He will be 3 in March. I was up to 125mgs then detoxed 2mgs a week without any problems until I got down to 32mgs and then got really sick, now I'm back up to 60mgs. I'm trying to switch to subutex then back to suboxone cause its a better fit for me. I also used to be miss goody two shoes :-) but when I was 16 I was diagnosed with rhumatoid arthritis and was prescribed pain pills, and I got hooked. I would use coke to help with opiate withdrawl, but pain pills were my drug of choice. I wish I never would have started taking them! Thanks for your support and I wish you the best of luck with your detox too :-)

Good stuff Sarah, can relate in so many ways...